enigmatic bitch
I look in the mirror in the morning and think...
September 2010
I pretend I'm over you, that I don't love you.
It almost works too, until I see your face or hear your voice. Then all I can think about is how beautiful you are and how I would give anything to spend the rest of my life with you.
But…you love her.
And I’m just your best friend.
fuck my dad.
so, if i don’t take out my gauges tonight, i guess i’m transferring schools immediately, getting my phone cut off, & i won’t get to live with lalu anymore. i hate how he overreacts about the stupidest little things.
16444.) I honestly never feel good enough for you
Sometimes I look at girls who have everything in the world; they're drop dead gorgeous, they're skinny, boys are all over them, they have money, they have a shitload of friends, yet they continue to complain about everything. Can you please just shut the fuck up? You may have shit going on at home, but we all do. You've got everything else going for you. Embrace it, bitch.
17578.) I don't believe in myself.
15907.) I miss the old us.
you eat, you're fat. you don't eat, you're a freak. you drink, you're an alcoholic. you don't drink, you're a pussy. you read, you're a nerd. you don't read, you're stupid. you tell a secret, you're an attention seeker. you don't tell a secret, you're still attention seeking. you let someone in, you're easy. you don't let someone in, you're too uptight. you smoke, you think you're cool. you don't smoke, you're a loser. you've had sex, you're a slut. you haven't had sex, you're a frigid little bitch. you wear make up, you're a slag. you don't wear make up, you're ugly. you can't please anyone. ever.
